It started in 3rd grade. I moved to a different school district and I wasn't sure if I was gonna fit in. I chose to be myself. It was 3rd grade.. puberty hadn't happened and I didn't look the best. People judged me on my size. I laughed a lot cause I was always nervous so they called me names cause when I laughed my face turned red. 4th grade came 5th grade came quickly and I moved to a different school but same district. I didn't know anyone. That first day i met a girl in my group and we just clicked and connected. We spent everyday in school at lunch in projects etc. To this day she is still my best friend cause she knew what I went through and we have been through so much. 6th grade came and it was like a whole different feeling for me. I felt ready and positive, but I was wrong. Some guys in all my classes picked on me and a few other kids, but they picked on me for how i looked. They called me names, they made stories and rumors about me.. and I kept telling myself it's just the beginning. 7th grade came and the same guys were in all of my classes. It felt horrible. I got so much anxiety almost everyday before school and skipped so much school cause I didn't know how to handle the issue. I got depressed throughout 7th and 8th grade and I started doing unhealthy things. Then things at home got overwhelming so I was even more stressed out and depressed. Finally i got the help I needed in freshman year. Things got so bad I ended up in the hospital cause these girls and boys were spreading rumors about me and judged how I dressed and looked. I moved to a different school half of freshman year thinking the bullying would go away but it didn't. It happened there too. thinking about escaping the issues isn't the right answer. In my case it was finding positive people and getting rid of the toxic people and not worrying about what others are doing. I started talking and listening to adults and getting the help I needed. In almost a year I am doing so much better. i realized walking away from your problems thinking you're alone and that it wont go away or wont get better isn't gonna help. But putting 100% effort in getting rid of the toxic people, getting new friends that stand by your side, listening to your parents, joining a sport or a club or talking to people will show you that everyone is made different and that everyone is going through very hard things. When you find someone going through the same thing you are going through, you can rely on each other, help them out cause you've been through the experience. I am almost a year clean, because of the decisions and help I got. When i grow up I wanna help kids and teens with their problems. cause nobody is ever alone!